From Andys office

Don't take anyone else's definition of sucess as your own....

Today was the day!!! :)

Well, I went to my appointment today. Got some okay news I guess.. I have to wait 3-6 months for the surgery. Our insurance has the stipulation that you have to be under a doctors supervised diet program before you are able to have surgery. So, I am looking at Fall to Winter before the surgery. I will be using Myfitnesspal.com and I got a membership to Snap today. So, LETS DO THIS!!

the day before the transformation....

This is Scott and I Memorial Day weekend 2013...  4 days from the date this picture is taken, I start my journey... That journey starts tomorrow. I have my appointment. I am scared, nervous and apprehensive. But not about going to the appointment. I am scared about what others are going to think. I am nervous of the outcome... am I going to accept myself and my new me? and I am apprehensive of the surgery.. hopefully lots of questions will be answered tomorrow...

Getting anxious...

Wednesday is right around the corner... I am nervous and anxious all at the same time!! So ready to make this change!!! I was able to tell Austen today. He doesn't understand it,  but hopefully he will when I am a healthier me :)

Wow...making the decision

It was an easy decision to make. I have been thinking about it over the years. Yep, it scares me. Yep, I know there are risks. But this is what I have to do for my family, and especially my kids and grandkids. I want to be around for a long time for them. But selfishly, I am doing this for myself. As my husband and others have told me, "I love you for you" and that is wonderful and I am grateful for that. But the problem is I don't love myself. I can't stand to look at myself. I want to look in the mirror and be able to tell myself, I am the best I can be.
So, this Wednesday, I start my journey with Gastric Bypass surgery. I go in on to have my initial physical and I am really looking forward getting this started. When they called to confirm my appointment, I even told them that!! She just laughed and said, "I hear that alot "
I know that some people will not agree with my decision and I am okay with that. I hope that the majority of the people will support my decision.